when life gets tough..and it sometimes will

I feel like every time I post now it’s regarding the extremes. Either super fun great times….or horrible shitty times. Unfortunately this post is a mesh up of all of that!
Last time we spoke I had just gotten back from an amazing work trip regarding diverse philanthropy in D.C. I went to a few museums and overall had the best time.
Then the following month, my mom was involved in a horrible car accident — a guy hit her head-on going 60 mph. She suffered tremendous injuries that will unfortunately affect her long-term. We’re praying for a full recovery, and honestly she is recovering beautifully. We are truly blessed. Then the following month, my husband’s best friend lost a loved one suddenly. It’s been non-stop action over here. 2018 has been quite the horror movie for us. One traumatic happening after the next. BUT it has put so many things in perspective for me!
1. Call your parents.
I know that life gets in the way and you’re working and eating and going out and blah blah. I remember my Dad calling me about my mom’s car accident and my heart just dropped. It is the worst feeling. So yea. Call your parents more often then you do. I talk to my mom everyday now.
2. Talk to your therapist/psychiatrist/psychologist.
My psychiatrist has been #bae this past year. 2018 has been a doozy, and I honestly don’t know what I would have done without her. And Daisy!! My psychiatrist and puppy are clutch during these troubling times! But in all seriousness, mental health is so important and I truly believe that regular visits just to talk things out are crucial in your/our well-being.
3. Talk to your spouse.
One of the things I’ve been talking about in therapy is my inability to show vulnerability. I hate being vulnerable..exposed. I go to the extremes to not feel anything. In doing so, my spouse is left to wonder how he can support me emotionally because I’m constantly like “no, I’m good! let’s talk about you!” This is an ongoing struggle but now that I know what I’m doing I’m more aware when I’m doing it.
4. Love the ones who love you.
My close circle of friends have been amazing during this time. My mom’s sisters/family  have rallied around my mother and I just love it. My sister…my mom’s dance group…her close friends and family friends..my in-laws..countless others. Like..the people in your life who love you will show up and they’ll keep showing up!
However, you have to be able to deal with the people who don’t show up. I’ve been going back and forth about this with my psychiatrist because there are some people who have been spotty/brief with their communications…or just silent. And it’s like…hmmm.
If anything it’s made me realize who the members of my tribe are. People who will always be there for me….the ones you can depend on. I only have time for people who make time for me…and this difficult time has made me see things so clearly. And it’s no bitterness in this! I have love for everyone…but time is precious! I’m focusing on my loved ones.
5. Stop eating.
LOL. This one is for the emotional eaters out there! I gained 10 pounds in like 2 months just because of stress!!!!! Now…I’m back with my nutritional coach…back on the road to visible abs. I just got off a juice cleanse to re-set my body back in diet mode and it was roughhhhh but I’m ready! Diet has always been my struggle- working out is the easiest part for me.
6. Pray
I start to feel tense when I don’t do my nightly prayers. I have this Catholic app on my ipad and I do the readings from each day and a prayer of my own. I can’t express how much this has helped with my healing..and it’s such a no-brainer for me. My faith has really gotten me through this year and I’m so thankful for his Grace.
love and light xoxoxoxo

Tamra Lawson-Webb (Johnson)

the greatness of trader joes and cupping!

Before this past weekend, I hadn’t been to Trader Joes in months. It’s slightly out of my way and I usually prefer Sprouts (cheaper).

But..I was leaving my therapy appointment and I had time before the traffic got horrendous, so I stopped by the Trader Joes nearby and grabbed a few things that looked super cool. Trader Joes always has the coolest things/branding!! I wouldn’t necessarily call their products “clean” by any means…but their produce is usually on point. That cookie butter though…..#notsomuch.

I was serious about boosting the whole immune system thing!! I used the frozen fruit (minus the pineapple) to make this smoothie here IMG_4654(1)

I also went to my monthly bodywork massage with my fave Regina. I try not to even use the word massage when I go to her because it’s sooooo much more than that. It’s like slight massage with cupping therapy and muscle manipulation. I’ve learned so much about my body and how I move/walk/sit since going to here- it’s mad.

Anyways, we’ve been doing cupping therapy on the places where I carry the most inflamation/tightness- so basically everywhere. Paying close attention to my traps, shoulders (that left one boyyyy) and lower back. Since I’ve increased my running mileage, we did my thighs this past week and the marks are stilll there!!!

Let me back up- cupping therapy is an ancient technique that uses the suction from the cups to help with inflamatin, muscle flow and relaxation. It can act as like a deep tissue massage, and sometimes the cups can be moved throughout the skin to create a deeper more intense feeling (which I love).

My massage therapist lets the cups sit for like 5 minutes before removing them. My accupunturist likes to light the insides on fire and moves them around my back. Perfection.

This was the cups immediately after we finished. TMI. I thougth it was the coolest thing though LOL


I will say- I can deal with the cups on my shoulders and traps. But my lower back and quads?!? I was in some pain….and that’s saying a lot coming from me.

It took me a few days before I fully recovered from my session.  My legs felt awkward when I was running and I kept taking breaks. Finally my runs are sooo much better now. I have more power in my legs and I’m learning to sit up in my diaphragm/core and it feels like I’m like gliding.

If you have the option to do a cupping session I would highly recommend it. My husband’s chiropractor did it on his back the other day and he loved it!

Read more about it here.


weekend of wellness! vitamins and massage time!

So lately I’ve been going through a semi- rough patch of life. Just obsessing/worrying about things, switching jobs, the occasional doctor visit blah blah. I’m trying to get my life/health back on track, so my acupuncturist referred me to a massage therapist who specializes in lymphatic drainage.


Basically, it’s a super light massage technique that helps to re-circulate the body fluids, stimulates the nervous system and is super super relaxing. I had no idea that the lymph system is a network of tissues and organs that rid the body of toxins, waste, and other unwanted materials; it is part of your natural sewage treatment system.

A few weeks ago, I felt awful! I was super tired, sore and just felt like my body was fighting something off. Oh yea- I was also super stressed. I’ve improved since then, but I really want to focus on jump starting my immune system since then. SO this week and this weekend I’ve been doing the following:

  1. Had a lymphatic drainage massage. Which was AMAZING OMG! I encourage everyone to get one. This was the most relaxed I’ve ever been in my life. She focused on the key areas where we have a lot of lymph nodes, so basically the neck/face region, pelvis area and underarms. I felt restored.
  2. Drinking water! The lymph system is like 90% water. I’m also drinking a lot of ginger, turmeric and peppermint teas in the evening to relax. IMG_4620
  3. Dry Brushing- I was doing this at night but I felt like it energized my body so I’ve switched to the mornings. I grab my favorite body oil (rose hip), slather it on my body and get to brushing! I do it in small, clockwise strokes from the feed to the neck up.

    4. Vitamins! My acupuncturist also recommended the following vitamins. I take these once a day and vitamin c like three times a day:

    • Vitamin C for boosting the immune system
    • B-Complex vitamins for the building blocks of the body! Good for blood cell production
    • Zinc for maintaining good health. Helps hormone production, growth and repairment, improves immunity!
    • Bioflavonoids for antioxidants! IMG_4621
    • I’m also trying to get at least 7 hours of sleep each night! Right now I’m at 6…but I’m at my best with 7. So that’s the goal this week!

birthday fun, wonder woman and grocery haul!

So this post is totes late! I literally had it in my drafts and never published. Eeek! Anyways, throwback post from my husband’s birthday a few weeks ago! I absolutely adore birthdays, so I had a day planned full of food and gifts and food and workouts…..and cake. 🙂

In all disclosure, I ate way too much cake/candy, which resulted in me going over my macros. But sometimes you have to stop obsessing and just live. So I basically lived Thurs-Sunday. Today, it’s a new week! Back on it!


This was the FIRST cake that I frosted…like professionally. I bought this piping kit from Amazon and use actual frosting bags and frosted the cake with a scraper. It was kind of amazing. I surprised the birthday boy with week 3 pre-season tickets to the Cowboys. I am not a fan….but he is. And he was super excited about it so #giftwin for me!!!

Next we made a stop to Central Market to pick up some chocolate covered almonds and gummy bears for the movie. We finally saw Wonder Woman. While I love what this movie is doing for women and allll the girl power that this movie encompasses, this movie did not live up to all the hype. I mean….plot holes?! World War II?? I loved the first 30 minutes of the movie, where they were all in the Amazon. If the movie had just stayed there, I would have been so content. But once she left to go end the war I was doneee. It was so boring. I just couldn’t believe it! I just knew I would laugh and cry and sob and laugh some more. I just couldn’t.

Next we grabbed some sushi! Tyrus was so excited about this cause we never get sushi since I’m always dieting LOL.


Obvs the cucumber sushi and the enormous portion of grilled chicken and vegetables is mine. And it was divine.


This meal was just amazing! We went here. Go there. Do it.

The next day we went grocery shopping together! Which never happens. Grocery shopping is usually my alone time. I love walking the aisles and reading ingredient labels. It’s like therapy almost- it calms me. When we go together, it is not the same (lol) but I loved the company regardless.


Since the husband is on summer break, he is at home more…which means he eats more.  So most of the stuff in this photo are for him. Eggs, yogurt, fruit, wings, juice= all him. The only things I grabbed from this haul were chicken, red potatoes, flax milk, Boars Head turkey and some new crackers.


I’m obsessed with those NuGo bars! They are perfect for when I need to get some carbs in.


I’ve had a decrease in fats, so I’m obsessed with this milk. My husband tasted it and said it was horrible lol


I need something for my sweet tooth! I tried to merge in some chocolate covered almonds, but I miscalculate those too easily. They’re just too tempting!


week/weekend updates + closet organization!

This weekend was uber domestic- i truly felt like a wife/mother or something (i am not the mother though LOL). Here are a few scenes from the weekend and some food….cause #foodislife.

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GREENS. I’ve been trying to increase my fiber intake…and I noticed last week I rarely ate any vegetables to fulfill my carb macros. What gives?! So I make a giant pot of greens for us to eat throughout the week. Obsessed.

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I was doing great with drinking some vinegar every morning before my tea to start my digestive system off on a good start!


Matcha tea lattes……require no additional commentary.

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I ate this meal 3 nights last week- grilled chicken, greens, broiled mushrooms and sauteed plantains.

This was our closet before I started organizing it! I literally felt sick everytime I used to come in here…..there was just shit everywhere OMGGGGG. I took like 4 hours on Saturday to hunker through this. I managed to get out alive. BURELY…



Now for the reveal….

Life is good. Organized and good.